I am learning about my tendency to consume.
I do this when I am afraid of my own creativity.
So I default to helping others or buying something new that I think will help my creativity. Or eating too much.
It is subtle too. Lately it was buying a nice plant, a cool paint pen or too many slices of pizza. I had tons of reasons to get these things. But these were distractions from me putting my own creativity out in the world.
I also found that when I am not creating I have a tendency to be more judgmental. Much easier to evaluate or analyze what others are doing since deep down I am irritated that I am not giving my self the freedom to express my own ideas.
Creativity is powerful. And consuming all the information and stuff out there can sure be a barrier to letting my own art be out in the world.
